dispond

I am here unquestionably an exile but I will never dispond at my fate nor whimper because my own folly, want of tact or the very malice of the times have placed me in Patmos when I desire a more splendid theatre.

As I Remember Recollections of American Society during the Nineteenth Century Marian Gouverneur

The Pilgrims then, especially Christian, began to dispond in his mind, and looked this way and that, but no way could be found by them by which they might escape the River.

The Pilgrim’s Progress, in the Similitude of a Dream; The First Part. Paras. 800-907 1909

The Pilgrims then, especially _Christian_, began to dispond in his mind, and looked this way and that, but no way could be found by them by which they might escape the River.

The Children's Hour, v 5. Stories From Seven Old Favorites Eva March Tappan 1892