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I swear on a stack of walruses I did not come here by ego-googling; I followed John DeNardo's link from Facebook and was startled and pleased to read your penultimate paragraph.
But a pain in the ego is the price you pay for ego-googling.
And randomly ego-googling yourself because you are stressed out and want reassurance that you don't suck is as likely to produce people who think you're a wanker as people who really, really like your books, so the net benefit is probably negligible.