When the structure is most unstable, it is time for change. And there is something within me, the A, beyond structure, which can make change. I had given up too soon. Chaos/disorder may be an order of conciousness itself, and I had been in it then. So I had given up too soon and went sliding down the wrong chreode chute. But there will be a right moment. I will go beyond the stars and their orbits. I will be in the crack again, the W, double B, and I will sing the message of change to my form.