But there is that word. Asexual. There is the fact that you’ve never felt this way before. So you will go back to that word. You will look it up again and this time you will explore what it means, all its subsets and associated words. In your search you will come across a new word: demisexual.
Someone who can only experience sexual attraction after an emotional bond has been formed. This bond does not have to be romantic in nature.