Did you maybe mean despair?
- dis- + pair (Wiktionary)
“This whole ordeal leaves me in dispair for the soul of the character and any shred of faithful treatment to the literature.”
“We ended up leaving in dispair of ever getting a turn in the grain mill or on the falling bed.”
“They just want to live in dispair and cry about what is wrong with this country,.”
“The time of darkness and dispair is coming to and end.”
“And stayed up til 3am on election night, wallowing in dispair with a handful of other people in the student center)”
“If our clergy were set up to respond to "dispair" -- rather than asking, "have you seen your physician?”
“After Bush’s tenure, I want the Repugs and the trolls to howl in dispair.”
“This gave me hope where a flawless poet might have made me dispair … his metrical variety, his fondness for complicated stanza forms, were an invaluable training in the craft of making.”
“I have a thousand times thought of Uley vally, and of you and Mr Cooper, but always with somthing very like dispair of ever seeing you again.”
“They do that to end it, the only thing many of them enjoy starting are wars, hate, anger and dispair ......”
Looking for tweets for dispair.